Hi Mom: My heart is so heavy as I write this. I know it has been 2 years today since your passing but I still find you in my thoughts and heart daily and the tears still burn when I think of you or want to call you or see you! All I can say is life now, since your gone, leaves me with such pain. When Dad and Ray passed I remember the loss, I remember the pain, and I remember feeling like I lost my best friend in Dad's passing. Does it take over 10 years to lift ourselves up and realize they are gone and lesson the tears? If so, we have a long time to go -- since the pain has not lessened at all and I see you every time I close my eyes and realize how much I miss you! It feels like yesterday I was there to hug you, to talk, to be with you! I do not think there is a timeline to grieve -- it is what it is ... Really hard! Last I wrote to you on your pretty site here at Brown Chapel was in 2017 at Christmas. This year Christmas came and went but was a joyous day remembering you. The holidays were your joy in life and you always made them special. We tried to carry on the tradition this past 2018 but somehow without you, it does not work. It is more serene then festive. Soon, after the New Year in 2019, your February 2 birthday came along, again a day of remembrances. Today is April 7, 2019, and today will be a hard day for many who loved you and will remember your sweet smile and kindness. For me, it is one more sad day, one more day I wish you were here, and one more day I wish we could talk -- another day that I hear you say "Yvonne" in that way you always said it. But, I will talk with you when we visit the grave and I will blow you a kiss for all and from all. Please know Mom -- you will never be forgotten -- your presence has been felt by all of us. The sun is your brightness, the rain is your tears, I know you miss us as much as we miss you. Rest In Peace Mom! XX OO & many more!